tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-174829532011-04-22T16:07:13.285+12:00in a happy placehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08898850766547372691noreply@blogger.comBlogger11100tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-17482953.post-1128504449260701302005-10-06T18:24:00.000+13:002005-10-05T22:50:32.566+13:00Where to start? I need to write to stay alive (sounds dramatic but I am thinking of my emotional and spiritual 'life'), and this is as good a place as any. A central place to collect my thoughts and ponder over the greater meaning of life. Oh yeah, and also to get published before I am 30.<br /><br />This doesn't exactly count, but it is good practise and I can try and write regularly I suppose.<br /><br />I am 28, lacking a real direction and any real career path. I fall into jobs and careers, but not doing anything that particularly excites me. I just know how to work hard and to do a job properly, yay, my claim to fame.<br /><br />I have a loving partner and stepson, and a very affectionate cat. I live in a beautiful country, have enough to eat, enough money to be relatively comfortable, and have family and friends who love me.<br /><br />The problem is that I feel unfulfilled, and like a fake. Not that I am particularly false, but I feel like I am pretending to be an adult sometimes. It doesn't come naturally, and dammit I don't want to be responsible. I am a parent without ever having given birth, and that is a huge responsibility.<br /><br />So the aim is to have a career that I love and that excites me, not a big ask I know......<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/17482953-112850444926070130?l=ineedtobreathe.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>in a happy placehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08898850766547372691noreply@blogger.com1